Seriously God, this is the First time I feel that you're so fuckin "NICE" to me!! DAMN! I just want a guy, you doesn't need to give me in ONCE! Seriously! Do you hate me that much??? Why you always makes me have a hard time, having hard decision! WHY?????!!! I just want someone care and love me, but I don't 2 at once~ 1 is totally enough!!!! I thought I am going to kill both of them and let them disappear from my life..
Well~ It's an "awesome" experience~~~~~ At least I know what should I go for and who is better for me. At least...... I hope I didn't make the wrong decision.
Letting a guy that I like to leave, it's difficult and hurt. But, this is life. We can't get whatever we want and, being loved by someone is better than fall for someone. Maybe I can't really feel the best, but at least it maybe feel blessed. He's a nice guy~ He takes care of me~ The most important is, he loves me better than I do. Am I too selfish?? Am I??
He told me, being selfish is acceptable for us right now at this age. "K", we are really selfish! Seriously! But, this selfishness hurts me and maybe you too. I'm happy to hear that you likes me just like what I do, but we can't go for each other, because we have the same thing to protect. Time will makes us move on! I believe so and you believe that too~
DAMN!! I always think about why we are so alike, it's just like, we know each other for a long long time~~~~~ I really like you~ remain at friendship! I told you, I like you as a "friend", this is my position and also yours! We need to protect the thing that we should protect! In the future, maybe we will meet and maybe something may happen but I don't think it will happen though. Let's keep this as a past in our life.. I really have a good time staying with you and know you~ And, knowing you like me! This is really the biggest happiness I have.. Because I thought you don't, you have too many options, PLAYBOY!!!!
Well well~ I've made the decision and I think I'm happy in this condition! It may work, I believe.................
