Already decided..

I have rejected him at last.. Well, some people will think that I'm look down on people or thinking that my ownself like very holy.. But guys, if you have the same feeling or situation as me, you will know that sometimes having a relation with others in this simply way is not good at all.. It hurts you and it also hurt the one they love you.. If it is like this, I prefer to be single and don't have such a difficult relation at school..
I have to say sorry for him even though I say it just now, many times to him.. You say, nevermind, then you just be my adopted sister.. You say that in a easy way, but I know that it hurts you very much, if you truely love on me.. Forgive my selfishness.. I do not want any complicated life in school and I also don't want to be in a relation such this young and naive age.. I'm not that mature just like you all saw.. I'm still that kind of childish and mischiveous person.. Maybe I'm mature on something but in couple, I'm totally blank.. Oops~!! out of topic.. Ok, come on back.. Hmm.. (....), don't too sad.. You will find your true love if you meet someone outside on someday.. The world is so big, I trust that you really will find someone better that me.. I know that this kind if word is a 'traditional' reject speech, but it's true that you will find.. Don't wait me.. I'll hurt you more deeper if like this.. You feel more hurt.. I hope you, you will find yours..
Love really make people become blind.. The description of me at school is, rude,tom-boy, bad-tempered, etc.. The most are this few kinds, but it still got someone been attracted.. Well, guys, isit love is blind? WhAt do you all think? I feel speechless of it.. Haixx~!!

Isit Love him?

Relationship really is a problematic thing.. It make ppl feel happy, it make ppl sad.. For me, love this kind of relation Is a difficult and annoying thing..
I reali confuse on something.. Something that I never touch before.. A lot of teens, especially girls love it.. That's LOVE.. She-male loves much.. They are thinking about a wonderful and romantic love story.. Haixx~!! For me, I mean for young de me, I dislike loving this relation.. It hurts ppl very much and it will also been betray if you too trust on him/her..
I reali don't know what to do about him.. He always say he loves me.. Erm.. I admit that I also like him
larhx.. Just I don't know I suppose to accept or not.. Maybe this a girl's mao dun feelings bha.. Wanna together but scared been hurt.. I don't know, I din have this kind of experience.. After he start to say he won't give up me, he always tells me he loves me.. Hmm.. I admit I feel happy on that la.. To the truth, my heart already accept him just my mind haven't.. I really scared he will hurt me or I can't leave him if we break up.. I don't want to be that stupid.. I don't want be sad just because of a guy.. That really look so stupid.. Pig, what u need to do to you lea? You really make me very fan orhx.. You ask me to be your mui? To the truth I'm happy when I heard that and I also accepted you at first.. But after I think back, I dislike our brother and sister relation.. This like already confirm our relation just can stop at this stage.. OMG~!! I reali been crazy on it.. That day he say something that make my feeling very sour.. He say I must tell him when I fall in love with another guy.. It hit my weakness.. This make me feel that I reali hurt him very deeply.. Haixx~!! I asked him to give up before but he say won't give up and say he will make me slowly accept him.. Wu~ I scared I will lose la.. But, I dint mind I will lose to him la.. XD I reali crazy le la~!! Mamamiya~!! Ah dear and ah bii say I really love him warhx and I dont realize.. Isit true? I don't know.. Not experienced before.. Sometimes feel you very childish, but I din angry even that I reali dislike childish guys ok.. I won't give face if that guy childish.. Feel sienxx.. But I shocked that I will go tam you.. Is it this Zheng Ming I like you? Haixx~!! I think I'm not brave enough to start o love ba, even is you start to ask..

The Day Comes Again

I reali hate this day, I mean the friendship problem.. I really hate it much~!! fade up~!! even I'm fade up on it, but the 'manager' of the heaven doesn't let me get this stuff off.. Oh gosh~!! Stop it please~!! I hope is me think too much.. I really feel that thus few days you three got a lot of secrets hiding from me and you all didn't let me join anything between you all.. Am I thinking too much, I always asked myself like this.. I admit that I'm quite a sensitive person.. A bit of differences between us, I will think out a lot of things out.. Now I'm trying to do something to attract you all to me but I don't know I will success or not, because as my experience on last time, I lose the game, completely lose.. So I don't know doing this kind of stuff again will make you all feel annoyed or not.. Or you all will feel that I so 'want'.. Guys, I reali need you all.. To the truth, I feel comfortable with you all even sometimes you all tease on me or say something not suitable.. I know you all dislike my characteristic, but don't leave me guys.. This reali scares me.. I reali frightened that you all leave me slime just like that girl before..
I reali feel that I'm that useless.. I can't build up a nice and long friendships.. Most if my friends do hate me.. Maybe I'm always the one who got problem and makes trouble.. But, what can I do, it's hard to change.. Please accept this type if ME..