Seriously God, this is the First time I feel that you're so fuckin "NICE" to me!! DAMN! I just want a guy, you doesn't need to give me in ONCE! Seriously! Do you hate me that much??? Why you always makes me have a hard time, having hard decision! WHY?????!!! I just want someone care and love me, but I don't 2 at once~ 1 is totally enough!!!! I thought I am going to kill both of them and let them disappear from my life..
Well~ It's an "awesome" experience~~~~~ At least I know what should I go for and who is better for me. At least...... I hope I didn't make the wrong decision.
Letting a guy that I like to leave, it's difficult and hurt. But, this is life. We can't get whatever we want and, being loved by someone is better than fall for someone. Maybe I can't really feel the best, but at least it maybe feel blessed. He's a nice guy~ He takes care of me~ The most important is, he loves me better than I do. Am I too selfish?? Am I??
He told me, being selfish is acceptable for us right now at this age. "K", we are really selfish! Seriously! But, this selfishness hurts me and maybe you too. I'm happy to hear that you likes me just like what I do, but we can't go for each other, because we have the same thing to protect. Time will makes us move on! I believe so and you believe that too~
DAMN!! I always think about why we are so alike, it's just like, we know each other for a long long time~~~~~ I really like you~ remain at friendship! I told you, I like you as a "friend", this is my position and also yours! We need to protect the thing that we should protect! In the future, maybe we will meet and maybe something may happen but I don't think it will happen though. Let's keep this as a past in our life.. I really have a good time staying with you and know you~ And, knowing you like me! This is really the biggest happiness I have.. Because I thought you don't, you have too many options, PLAYBOY!!!!
Well well~ I've made the decision and I think I'm happy in this condition! It may work, I believe.................
Sunday, December 1, 2013
Saturday, November 9, 2013
Friday, October 18, 2013
一種“病”
太無聊了。翻開電話簿，想找朋友聊天卻找不到可以聊天的一個人。電話簿裡有超過一百人的聯絡號碼，卻真的不知道能找誰聊天。我真的有真麼可悲嗎？鬱悶！
我一直在問自己，我出國留學的一年裡到底都在幹嘛？除了“認識”人之外，我真的沒有能“聊得來”的朋友嗎？還是，自己本身就是一個問題？有毛病？？？？？很懷疑。
我自認我可以接受的了很多不一樣的想法和擁有“還不錯”的耐心接收很多奇奇怪怪的人，可是為什麼我還是這麼可悲？是自己本身問題？
PO了這張文更覺得自己夠可悲的。
Sunday, August 11, 2013
Engineering Life
Do you ever wonder how's an Engineering Life before??? I never! I swear..
I never think that I will be an engineering, never think about studying as an engineer. But, DUH!!! It happens now! It really happen!!!
I've been studying as an pre-engineer, for 6 months? More or less.. During this period of time, I found that engineering student is so pathetic!! Study is their whole life.. No wonder public says that engineering is a nerd~ Oh damn! I just realized that. And right now, I become one of them. I swear~~
But, I'm not that seriously yet. However, it's getting worse recently.
Studying, home, eat and digest!
Life~~~ dark as usual~~~~
Math? Kills me.. Physics?? Make me suicide..
Ha! How can my life be beautiful??? It MIGHT be beautiful on the day I success, maybe~ But, when my successful day come??? I wonder~~~~~~
I never think that I will be an engineering, never think about studying as an engineer. But, DUH!!! It happens now! It really happen!!!
I've been studying as an pre-engineer, for 6 months? More or less.. During this period of time, I found that engineering student is so pathetic!! Study is their whole life.. No wonder public says that engineering is a nerd~ Oh damn! I just realized that. And right now, I become one of them. I swear~~
But, I'm not that seriously yet. However, it's getting worse recently.
Studying, home, eat and digest!
Life~~~ dark as usual~~~~
Math? Kills me.. Physics?? Make me suicide..
Ha! How can my life be beautiful??? It MIGHT be beautiful on the day I success, maybe~ But, when my successful day come??? I wonder~~~~~~
Monday, July 1, 2013
Past Life VS Current Life~
Looking back to my old posts in my blog just found that I used to be a troublesome girl before too~ So TROUBLESOME!
Sensitive feelings, mistrust friends, etc. A lot~!!
Why I'm so sensitive?!?!?!?! I wonder too.. Am I just too bored, thinking too much all the time? Or I'm just under too much stress?? But, I think if I didn't go through these experiences in my life, I won't be a better person or grow. Those were "awesome" experiences, I bet!
My secondary school life, awful! Especially recorded in my blog! Love, friendship and family~ None of it is consider "happy"..
Why my life is that pathetic?!?!? WHY!!!!?????
I think, God somehow start to treat me better on any relationship.. He starts avoiding the experiences that I had before coming close to me.. I appreciate it.. I start not to suffer that much now on any relationship.. Yet, he starts punishing me to not study when I'm in Malaysia!! Wu~~ WHY!!!??? Why you do that to me!!!???
Homeworks and studies are a lot every single day! I'm crying for help every single day because of school works!
Haixx~~ God is TOO fair enough.. He won't make your life awesome, perfect! He will make it "balance"--make you blame on something every single day, every single hour!
Sensitive feelings, mistrust friends, etc. A lot~!!
Why I'm so sensitive?!?!?!?! I wonder too.. Am I just too bored, thinking too much all the time? Or I'm just under too much stress?? But, I think if I didn't go through these experiences in my life, I won't be a better person or grow. Those were "awesome" experiences, I bet!
My secondary school life, awful! Especially recorded in my blog! Love, friendship and family~ None of it is consider "happy"..
Why my life is that pathetic?!?!? WHY!!!!?????
I think, God somehow start to treat me better on any relationship.. He starts avoiding the experiences that I had before coming close to me.. I appreciate it.. I start not to suffer that much now on any relationship.. Yet, he starts punishing me to not study when I'm in Malaysia!! Wu~~ WHY!!!??? Why you do that to me!!!???
Homeworks and studies are a lot every single day! I'm crying for help every single day because of school works!
Haixx~~ God is TOO fair enough.. He won't make your life awesome, perfect! He will make it "balance"--make you blame on something every single day, every single hour!
Summer Quarter 2013 starts!
OMG~~~~~~~ Unbelievable! I can't believe that school is starting so soon~ WOW~!!!
2 weeks before, I'm still enjoying my life, telling everyone that I'm enjoying my break.. But, time passes so fast! School is starting in next few hours~
To be honest, my feeling of having classes again is kind of contradictory. A part of me feels happy because is not going to be bored; another part if me just hate it soo much!!! Haixx~ I'm going to have Schizophrenia soon, I think..
I really want to escape school, quit studying, but I can't!! I hate it!!!
2 weeks before, I'm still enjoying my life, telling everyone that I'm enjoying my break.. But, time passes so fast! School is starting in next few hours~
To be honest, my feeling of having classes again is kind of contradictory. A part of me feels happy because is not going to be bored; another part if me just hate it soo much!!! Haixx~ I'm going to have Schizophrenia soon, I think..
I really want to escape school, quit studying, but I can't!! I hate it!!!
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Life~ Haixx!
Ehem~~~~~~
Hehe~ (AWKWARD!!!)
Hi guys~ It's been awhile not coming here.. I almost forget I have a Blog, My 2nd HOME~
More than 6 months had past (I think), since my last post.. Hmm~ I kinda forget how to write "BLOG"!
During this PERIOD, my life has no changes.. It's same--eat, sleep, shit.. Ow~ recently added one, STUDY! Oh god~ Finally I'm STUDYING!! I think my parents are going to cry if they realize how hard is their daughter studying.. Erm~ it's not really "hardworking", but at least it's better than high school, probably.. Haha~
Before coming back to Seattle, starting my school life, I've made up my mind being a chemical engineer.. Such an awesome dream right??? Wanting people to call me Doctor Wong so much.. Hahahahaha~ Shame on me, imagining such a big dream!
Recall back to my high school thinking, I hate studying! I hate MATH so bad! But now, I'm studying so hard for MATH, taking CHEMICAL ENGINEERING as my major.. Whenever I'm thinking about my major, it always surprise me. Why I want to take such a hard course as MAJOR? WHY???!!!!
DUHH! Life is hard~ If life is easy, we don't need to suffer that much every single day.. Right??!? Agree??!?
To be honest, this major really drives me often.. I really think that I'm not at the correct pathway, but I still want to do it.. My determination is supporting me to do it, motivating myself to go for it.. I do have passion on it.. Why make it afraid to go for it, I think it's just I'm too diffidence.. When you're diffidence, you can't do anything.. I know this basis, but I still can't control my brain! Urghh~~
Haixx~ I always hope I'm still a high school student, living decadently. Such an awesome life~!! Don't you have the same feeling too????
Oh god~ Studying is not easy! Life is not EASY!!
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Hehe~ (AWKWARD!!!)
Hi guys~ It's been awhile not coming here.. I almost forget I have a Blog, My 2nd HOME~
More than 6 months had past (I think), since my last post.. Hmm~ I kinda forget how to write "BLOG"!
During this PERIOD, my life has no changes.. It's same--eat, sleep, shit.. Ow~ recently added one, STUDY! Oh god~ Finally I'm STUDYING!! I think my parents are going to cry if they realize how hard is their daughter studying.. Erm~ it's not really "hardworking", but at least it's better than high school, probably.. Haha~
Before coming back to Seattle, starting my school life, I've made up my mind being a chemical engineer.. Such an awesome dream right??? Wanting people to call me Doctor Wong so much.. Hahahahaha~ Shame on me, imagining such a big dream!
Recall back to my high school thinking, I hate studying! I hate MATH so bad! But now, I'm studying so hard for MATH, taking CHEMICAL ENGINEERING as my major.. Whenever I'm thinking about my major, it always surprise me. Why I want to take such a hard course as MAJOR? WHY???!!!!
DUHH! Life is hard~ If life is easy, we don't need to suffer that much every single day.. Right??!? Agree??!?
To be honest, this major really drives me often.. I really think that I'm not at the correct pathway, but I still want to do it.. My determination is supporting me to do it, motivating myself to go for it.. I do have passion on it.. Why make it afraid to go for it, I think it's just I'm too diffidence.. When you're diffidence, you can't do anything.. I know this basis, but I still can't control my brain! Urghh~~
Haixx~ I always hope I'm still a high school student, living decadently. Such an awesome life~!! Don't you have the same feeling too????
Oh god~ Studying is not easy! Life is not EASY!!
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