It's Bad Dream

I think this time it isn't I think too much.. You divisible your post from me, decline my phone, doesn't reply my message both in FB and phone.. You off your phone after I called in.. Well, Ying say, you uses your SIM for internet.. I tried to trust it, but I cant.. It's so hard to trust.. How I gonna trust it? Isit really just like what you all say, I'm too sensible? No.. 100%, it isn't.. Is you all do it too over le.. Message didn't reply is still consider as lazy wanna reply.. But calling until the phone stop and the 2nd time I call you purposely shut down the phone that's call, you really HATE/DISLIKE/FADE UP me.. Is this what you all are thinking? Wanna break the friendship between us? Tiara Jie says, this is our pleasure to be friends with each other because the God gives us this chance to meet each other, to know each other and to be friends with each other.. I appreciate that even sometimes I go something to 抱怨 between each of you, but I still 看重 our friendships.. But, what do you all treat me as actually? From your heart, you truly heart, what do you treat me as? True friendships? Or just the fake one? Which you all choose? I'm sorry that I annoyed so much about this stuff again.. I dont want much with you all, I just want a safety friendship relation.. I really dont want our relation 变质.. I still want this friendships.. Do you all? I still dont know wat's wrong between you all and me.. I thought that our problem have solve it on last Saturday or Sunday actully, but it seems that is I thinking it too naive.. If this is you all's 手段 to kick me out，then I can say, you all have success.. I have nothing to win you all.. I have completely lose..If this is you all's 选择，then I have nothing to say.. I will leave as you all wish to.. 'She' done anything wrong, you all just talk at her back.. I done wrong, you all wanted me to leave.. I have nothing to say.. I think this is what the adults say-- This is the world's REALITY.. YOU ALL COMPLETELY WIN.. From beginning till the end.. Till now it just a bad dream to me.. I'm just being a clown on this show.. Maybe I shall leave PEOPLE from the the world.. Maybe I shall be alone from the begining to the end of my life.. I always fall on the same spot.. I know that it will repeat and repeat again if I start a friendship, but I still jump in to the trap that I always fall.. I think I'll try to leave from FRIENDSHIP, this world to the end of my life.. I have fade up with friendship.. I'm tired to support friendship..